Sunday, April 11, 2004
Met up with Geek today. Its been a long long while. He's attached so i guess thats new. Seems like a nice gerl. Hope for the best fer him. He has always been someone that just accepts every situation that comes his way while i have always been the opposite. Have i been trying to be too perfect? I Doubt it. It probably best to have a good mix of both sides of the story. Hmm...-ponders ponders-
Upon careful consideration, i have decided on certain things that will be applicable from now onwards. This morning while inuyasha-ing (anime-ing) i was wondering whether i am an introvert or an extrovert. This is what i have come up with; with certain pple i react differently from another bunch of pple. Sad to say i have no one constant life. I life in many worlds. Many realms. I have tried to figure myself out but to no avail. I believe in certain things but most of the time, i disagree and oppose the wayss of this world.
Yes i am one FUCKED UP person. If you can understand me tell me and tell me. I've been to a shrink a couple of times and he couldn figure shit outta me. I stopped going in any case as it was too expensive. That was when i was in sec 2 though so i guess that things have progressed to a totally new level. haha.. I miss my secondary school friends. I miss the old clique of friends. But most of them have turned out all bastards who dun try to keep old friendships going. Sigh. I hope dearly that this doesn turn out with disc knights. Intuition tells me that most of us will treasure each other because we are going in to serve the nation le. Sad isn't it. Just because of this. It could be another way and all just treasure everyone because all are those sort of friends but thats being too realistic.
From this moment, whatever i feel will only be expressed here i guess and maybe to a few pple. I'm going back to the way i was coz its not worth it. Am sick and tired of trying to be read lyk an open book. Its time it goes back to being closed.
Only one person has known me for me. Unfortunately, she died a long time ago. To me that is
I beg you. Figure me out. Tell me. Let me see the light. Give me the knowledge.
My question to you is, Who is Andre?
-out-
